STUPID IRRESPONSIBILITY!!!

STUPID IRRESPONSIBILITY!!!

If you're looking for sunshine, rainbows and cute fuzzy bunnies, I advise you to look elsewhere for the time being.

I'll start from the beginning.

I am currently in the middle of an internship at a local physical therapy clinic. Part of that internship is a project which should teach the student (me) something and be a help to the cooperating agency (the pt clinic). I've elected to create an exercise poster to be displayed near the pool, so that the former patients who return a few times a week to continue their aquatic exercises will have a visual cue to work with. So I wrote my project proposal, turned it in and was approved to proceed. In the proposal, which I gave to everyone involved, I delineated what I would need from each individual and when.

That was almost two weeks ago and I have made little to no progress since then.

This is why: I need computer created images. The program that creates the images is housed in only a few particular computers on campus and I had no idea how to run the program. I needed my supervising professor to show me how. I put in my proposal when in the project time line I would need to be shown how to work it, which was a week ago. The professor was out all last week and never returned my phone call. I had to call him again. So finally today I got to work with the computer (and I had to cancel my actual work hours to be present this afternoon because the professor is out again through the rest of the week.) I get to the computer and the program hasn't been properly installed by the campus tech people yet, so it is completely useless. The professor tells me to wait until he's back next week so he can call the tech people to come install it. Next week is my last week of internship. I'm supposed to have this poster totally finished and present it to the pt clinic by next Friday.

This is a great example of my BIGGEST pet peeve: when people don't follow through and my goal depends on them.

If I can't get the poster done in the time period specified, I will look bad to the therapists at the clinic. One or more of them may be on my interviewing board for physical therapy school come September.

Days like today make me want to be a hermit. There have been several times today that I have been stopped at a red light and I just let out a huge scream-- the shakes the glass sort. I am that frustrated.

I think I'll try to sleep away some of the frustration for now and then run until I can't breath anymore once the blazing sun goes down. Running does wonders for me when I'm upset.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

STUPID IRRESPONSIBILITY!