pricey prices
08.31.05 (6:37 am) [edit]why do clothes cost so much?! i need a hoodie to take to class because some of my classes are a wee bit chill bumpy. i, clad in athletic shorts and t-shirt this week due to pre-class workouts, have frozen in a couple of my classes and wished to remedy this problem by purchasing a school hoodie at the bookstore. i marched up to the bookstore with a $25 gift certificate i received for graduation, and about $10 in my pocket figuring $35 should be enough for a simple hoodie. i waltz into the store, am greeted by a sales clerk i know and chit chat a moment before i go on way toward the hoodie, and sweatshirt wall. i pick up the tag of the first one i see, and nearly laugh because they want me to pay $40 plus tax for a hoodie! i think not. i spy another hoodie, and pick up its price tag, $37. ...... ..... what?! so i marched myself right out. i rarely pay that much for jeans, with the tax. i would imagine that an entire outfit i wear each day- flip flops, jeans, and t-shirt costs that much. I REFUSE TO PAY THAT MUCH FOR ONE ITEM OF CLOTHING!
i passed by a gas station on the way to school this morning. i checked out the prices as usual. "$2.99" read the sign. i did a double take and asked myself, "where's the cheap stuff on the sign." that $2.99 was the cheap stuff! i nearly had a heart attack right there going down a main road at 5:30 in the morning. well, i would have gotten out of practice. :wink:
prayer request
08.30.05 (4:10 pm) [edit]forgot to mention that greg, my oh-so-handsome(if i do say so myself) boyfriend, tore his acl a lil over a week ago, and will have surgery to repair that soon. keep him, and his upcoming surgery in your prayers if you will. thanks! its awesome have bros and sis's to lift up prayer requests. :D
i <3 college
08.30.05 (4:00 pm) [edit]so college is the bomb! :D my classes are pretty easy. just have to pay attention and do the minimal homework they assign. not too bad. they're all freshman classes-obviously, since i'm a freshman-so they're not very hard, and also not that intriguing. my old testament class is the exception. there's alot of work in there, but i've learned alot of interesting stuff. for instance, did you know "jehovah" isn't actually a word, much less God's name. it was just a boo-boo made in translation way back in history somewhere. *giggles* that says to me, "don't worry about your mistakes. they go down in history; everybody accepts them anyway." haha. o ya, i'm keeping another blog as part of my grade for that class, so you can stop by if you feel like it, or whatever. i'll put a link up in the links section.
tennis has been alot of hard work. worked out with the team in the heat of the day last week. this week i go to school at 6 am to workout with them, and practice all afternoon. let's just say i'm beat. which is why i am going to say good-bye now. have fun doing whatever you were doing before you ran across this sorry excuss for a blog entry. have a nice day. :D
Will you flee?
08.26.05 (10:41 pm) [edit]One Sunday morning during service, a 2,000 member congregation was surprised to see two men enter,both covered from head to toe in black and carrying submachine guns.One of the men proclaimed,
"Anyone willing to take a bullet for Christ remain where you are." Immediately, the choir fled...the deacons fled...and most of the congregation fled.Out of the 2,000 there only remained around 20. The man who had spoken took off his hood. He then looked at the preacher and said,
"Okay Pastor, I got rid of all the hypocrites. Now you may begin your service. Have a nice
day!" (courtesy of alicia's myspace bulletin)
In America we have the freedom of religion to support our worship of God. In other countries no such liberty exists. Believers in these countries face the kind of situation above everytime they meet, everytime they steal away to read the one chapter of Bible they own, everytime they tell their family members of their belief. They risk death for Christ on a daily basis. Do you? More than likely, no. Do you live like you do? More than likely, no. (Please don't think for a moment I am shaking my fists at everyone but myself; calling myself righteous beyond all. This is a challenge I've issued to myself as well.) Think about it.
choosing a college
08.18.05 (10:33 pm) [edit]i just wanted to take a moment to praise God for giving me enough sense to choose the only Christian college on my list of college choices. that has got to be one of the best decisions i have EVER made. these past few days have been evidence of the awesomness of Christian fellowship; i would have totally missed out if i had chosen one of the state schools. everything we have done so far this week at new student orientation has been wild, and crazy, but at the same time with Christ still evident. :D hsu for me!
love pushing Love out
08.16.05 (8:56 am) [edit]i ordered most of my textbooks for the year off e-bay, as that was cheaper than the bookstore on campus. the books have begun to trickle; at the moment, i have one left floating around in the u.s. postal system somewhere. you've heard how i've read my art book... or rather 1/5 of it, which is equal to the intro to the intro to art. i got home last night and was on such a high-not an illegal substance one, mind you- that i couldn't go to sleep, so i thought i'd read somemore. i looked at the art book, and reasoned to myself, "i've probably already saved myself at least a week of reading in that class, let's try somewhere else." so i picked up c.s. lewis's the four loves, a required book for my english comp class. i read the intro through, and perhaps found the answer to my melancholy over the past week.
i spent every evening this past summer with my boyfriend, greg. it was a dream. not like we went and spent a bazillion dollars on movies, concerts, amusement parks, or whatever "dates" usually consist of. more than likely you could find us somewhere in the city, or even out of it, walking or sitting around just enjoying each other's company. so let's just greg's sudden departure for college football practice was a bit alarming. ok, let me re-phrase that... i practically went into shock, or i assume this must be how shock feels. a huge part of my life just dropped out, with seemingly no warning. i knew he would be going away, but i guess i figured i'd get to see him enough. ya, he's been practicing with the team everyday from 6:50 am til 10 pm, with an 11 curfew. no time for bria. so like i said, i went into shock. for 3 days his dorm didn't even have the internet, so there were a couple days i didn't hear from him at all. (i know this sounds pathetic, and it REALLY is, but this is reality, folks; from my heart through my fingers to your computer screen.) i went crazy; for a while i thought literally. i had NOTHING to do! the only thing i had to keep me busy was to feed the dog (5 mins), pick up my room (30 mins), work out (1 hour) eat my meals (2 hours tops), and sleep (7 hours). so that adds up to about 10 hours and 35 mins of my everday 24 taken by stuff. what was i supposed to do with the other 13 1/2 hours left to me?!?!?! i made stuff for me to do- i contacted every incoming freshman girl at hsu i could find on myspace, i bid on my textbooks on ebay, i did hit tennis balls with the old ladies for a few hours one day. most of my time previously had been tied up in volunteering, nap, work out, be with greg. 3 of those activites dropped out within a few days of each other-volunteering, naps, and greg. but greg was the kicker.
so anyway, back to the book, the four loves. the main reason for my despair, i think, could have been that my affection for greg was every so slyly creeping over and infiltrating the spaceof my affection for God. that's an interesting idea. love being a monster. i guess it could be... no, definatly can be- i wrote a poem about a heart in love being a monster several years ago, now that i think about it. so my affection is pushing God out. love pushing out love. weird, but i believe sadly to be true. now, what do i plan to do with this new revelation? something, definatly something. (that's one of my pet peeves; someone gets info that could change their lives dramatically for the better, then does nothing with it. like the kid that goes to summer camp, gets "saved", but comes home and goes right back to their weed, or wild parties, or sexual immorality, or what have you. like james said, faith without deeds is dead.) what i do with this info i think is critical to my well being... maybe not even just mine, but greg's too. shesh, i would hate to be responsible for the spiritual downfall of another, especailly one i care about so much. i would just die inside, i'm sure of it. back to the plan... no worries, greg, i don't plan to give you the boot. i really don't want to resort to that cause i believe God has a reason for us being together; what that reason is, or even if this revelation is the reason, i don't know, but it is not important that i know the reasons behind Gods plan. in fact, i don't want to know. my head would explode...its swelling now just at the thought of knowing God's plan. i'll just listen for God's cue. greg and i started doing a Bible study together at the beginning of the month, and i think that is key. to get us both re-focused back on God, and growing together in Him, cause that's how God intended for any relationship to be- rather it be friendship or otherwise; focused on Him. i've been praying that greg and i would go grow like that since we've been together, and i believe greg has been too, or at least we always add that when we pray together. so i suppose our prayers been answered. just not how i'd like them to have been. but then again, when has God ever answered our prayers like we wanted in a purty box tied neatly with a ribbon.
the moral of the story is: beware of things pushing God out, for even love can push Love out.
'shroom!
08.15.05 (7:42 pm) [edit]i kicked a mushroom today. that is one of my favorite rainy day activites. kick the lil white tops, and watch 'em explode. :lol:
mosquito, and vet visit
08.15.05 (4:31 pm) [edit]so i've had a request to blog more. i totally agree. i just wish something to write about would come to mind!
there's a mosquito in my room currently, and it is driving me batty! i do NOT want to be its next meal! everytime i've been on the comp in the last week or so, there has been some bug buzzing around. i don't mind bugs; actually, i think they're pretty cool, but i do not like it when they bother me! their annoying me gives me a license to seek and destroy!!! BWAHAHAHA! *yells* come 'er, you lil booger! ... *sweetly* mama's got a surprise for you! *creeps bent kneed, palms outstretched at the ready around the room listening intently for the soft "buzzzz" of the mosquito*
i took annie, the puppy, to the vet to get her first shots today. poor lil thing! she was so scared she didn't even whimper when they took her temp, or give her the shot. she wouldn't even eat the doggie treat they gave her. :-( awww... but once she got out into the waiting area again so i could pay she became herself again, sniffing around the entire room, wondering, "who's been here?", and jumping on a few people. thankfully, there weren't any other animals in the room at the moment. she hasn't had her rabis shot yet, so i'm really cautious about letting her be with other animals just yet. but that will be taken care of in 2 weeks. i'll have to take her on a car ride to somewhere pleasant between now and then so she won't associate a car trip with vet visits. i think i'll go take her on a quick walk now, actually.
o ya, i got the mosquito... amazon woman style- trap mosquito between hands and SMASH!!! *sinister grin*
bored out of my mind
08.14.05 (7:19 pm) [edit]do you realize i've been so bored this past week that i started reading one of my new textbooks. not only is it a textbook, it is an art textbook. and even more sad is that i am now 2 chapters into the book. and i read that much in only 3 sittings. mind you, these chapters are only about 20 pages long, but those were 40 pages introducing things such as "creativity" and defining exactly what art is. not to say it was boring, but jeez, can't those be answered in a few short sentences! so ya, anyway, i'm realllllllly bored.
can't you tell.
i bet you couldn't
i'm going to go continue my bored life now.
farewell!
i literally praise God new student orientation is this week, and classes start the next. whew! my brain would have surely turned to mush after another week of this boredom!
extreme makeover- from the inside
08.10.05 (8:31 pm) [edit]i thought this article was neat.
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whatever's going on in the inside will show on the outside. if your happy, and you know it... notify your face! but having ultimate happiness-joy- is a process that isn't instant; only God can give you joy, and only He can keep you from going crazy until the process is "complete". (quotations meaning the process is never complete, but an always continuing, and rebuilding cycle that, like i said, has to come from God.)
i made a lil girl cry today...
08.07.05 (10:07 am) [edit]i made a lil girl cry today.
i've been umpiring a junior tennis tournament the past 3 days-nearly 30 hours of work on your feet all day long in one weekend is so not cool, but the paycheck will be SCHWEET! this morning i got onto a lil 12 yr old girl for making a call that wasn't her's to make, and she couldn't hardly play the next few points for the tears. :'-( i feel aweful! she got over it pretty quick, but i made her cry! i feel her pain because i'm like that too; i'm such a perfectionist, that if i am corrected, i tear up. i know, big fat baby, yes, that is me. :-p i'm alot better than i was when i was younger. if i had been in the little girl's shoes when i was that age, i would have made a flood on the court. 0:-) this is the part where i hate being a perfectionist. oh wait, there isn't a part where i DO like it!
ok, i'm out. that was such an awesome blog, huh? ;-)
life update
08.04.05 (8:34 am) [edit]guess who's back! *duh nuh nuh* its me! your long lost blogger! sorry i haven't blogged in forever. everytime i want to blog, its something deep, but i haven't blogged in so long, i figure that's not a good way to start off again, so i don't blog, then i forget about my awesome idea so i put off blogging again... and again... and again.. until now. :-D *ta-da* here i am!
so i finished volunteering at the hospital. i got 82 total hours :-D go me!
we're keeping the pupppy, and my grandparents are quite as freaked out by her now. i'm teaching her basic commands, and to walk on a leash. her abilities come and go. as my cousin said, "she's cute and sweet, but sometimes she's a brat." that says it all. with some training, she'll grow out of the nippy puppy stage, and be a good dog... i hope. my dad says that if she doesn't quit biting, then she'll have to go. :-( so say a prayer. she's been christened "annie". the name started as "annabelle" but got shortened because that's a mouthful to say when you're trying to command her in a tight situation.
greg's moving into the dorms on saturday. :-( i really think i may cry. i've seen him nearly everyday this summer, except for vacas and a few outings with friends on his and my part. i won't get to see him much because acu football practice starts sunday, and so football will consume his life until the season is over. my main season is in the spring, so between our sports, and studies we'll be hanging out at a minimum, which scares me because everyone knows acu is home to the most beautiful girls in the world. *freaks out* :-O *sigh* if its meant to be, it will be. its so hard trusting God-even more so, a human- with the heart. or at least it is for me. i am so tempted to just take it into my own hands, and have a death grip on my heart, because i'm sick of it getting kicked around like a dead squirrel in the road. not to say greg hasn't been kind, and gentle. he wins the award for most caring guy i've ever had the pleasure of dating. *pins ribbon on greg* congrats, greg! i just have emotional baggage. ... ... ... won't it be great when we all get to heaven and don't have to worry, or care about anything anymore at all, but just praise God all day long? *sigh* shesh, tears are coming to my eyes just thinking of that beautiful release. many more trials and tribulations are to come my may as i stumble through life, but i literally thank God for loaning me His strength because, as you can see, i am such a wimp.
well, my daddy's fixing to pick up me and my sis for lunch. i guess i'll talk to ya'll later!
